सपनो में ना आया करो,

यूं ही न तड़पाया करो,

 तुम ही तो हो मेरी ज़िन्दगी,

मेरे दिल पे तुम्हारा साया करो।

हम जो ना हों कभी तेरी महफ़िल में,

रूखे रोशन से पर्दा ना हटाया करो।

सब से मिलो, राब्ता रखो सबसे,

हम जो आए तो पास हमारे अा जाया करो।

कुछ तो कहो युं ना खामोश रहो,

हमारी सुनो तो कुछ अपनी भी सुनाया करो।

सामने बैठी रहो यूं, बुत ना बनी रहो,

चिराग़ उम्मीदों के भी यहां जलाया करो।

फुरकत में तेरी जल रहे हम कब से,

ज़ुल्फो से तेरी दिल पे हमारे साया करो।

हम तो अा जाते तेरे कूचे में सुबह शाम,

तुम भी कभी हमारी जानिब अा जाया करो।

Angel you are..

Angel you are,

And answer to my prayers too.

The Lord has sent my way.

You are a hope to my desperate thoughts

Sometimes you are my pillow

Who can soak all my tears. 

And yet at times you turn into a punching bag

Which bears all my frustrations.

I still remember the day when I 

Held you the first time

You were pink, harmless, cute bundle of joy.

You looked at me as if you knew me 

You brought joy to my life

Became my smile, 

Centre of my world.

Keeping an eye on me even when 

Playing with friends.

Still look at me for that final nod.

Now you have outgrown my lap

And now ready to fly away.

But still you remain my little baby.

God bless you sweetheart and fill 

Your life with all the goodness

Sleepless Nights

Not being able to sleep at night without any medication is termed as sleeplessness. it is an ailment. but most of us including me refuse to accept this . As a result... no sleep... whole night. Despite every effort I make , it remains elusive for the better part of the night. The more I go after it, the more it runs away from me. It has become my "ruthi hui premika" whom I am desperate to win back.

I have tried all the tricks to woo her but all in vain. I have gone from domestic formulas but no use. Counted infinite sheep, drank warm milk, even tried doing sheersh aasana in the dead of night. But all proved useless. I have laid many traps but.... the culprit named sleep is yet to be caught. I think it is cleverer than me as it surpasses me every time. It always mocks me from a distance.

Many times I read books too especially those ones which are otherwise boring ones (as I take chances by adopting different methods every time). At many occasions I watch religious sermons to lure my darling sleep. Needless to say here that even then it always evades me. So many therapies have gone down the drain in their vain effort to win over sleep.

Sometimes I envy those who fall asleep just when they lie down. My husband is one such person who can fall asleep anywhere and at any time he wants. He would just lie down and close his eyes. And lo! You can hear his soft snore. He loves sleeping while travelling. It is his way to enjoy the journey. He sleeps the whole time. And me.... all awake...looking at people and hearing all sorts of snoring in the train coach.

All being said, but one thing is for sure. I do like my sleepless nights as there is no one to disturb me when I am reading. I write at night. Even this blog is being written while everyone else in the house is fast asleep. I need not worry about their lunches or dinners or teas or snacks. It is me and my creativity. It is quite peaceful during night as there is no one to disturb you and bother you. Basically despite having puffy eyes in the morning, after a sleepless night, I have no regrets about it.

Keeping in Pace

We are always worried about keeping in pace with others.   There is a receipt going on …. A rat race…where every one wants to win. Nobody wants to come second. Every where it is the same story. Winning has become all important. It has been there since ages but not as cut throat as it is now. The race begins at very age when parents want their kids to be ahead in every field. Even small kids are thrown in the arena to perform better than others.

Performing not only better but best has gained highest place. I our times bolt participation had significance. But now along with participation, coming first is necessary. All sort of pressure is there to excel. There is parents pressure … then peer pressure… or even self pressure where it becomes compulsory for our own self to excel. I hurts our ego.

Seldom it is realised that while going for the top we have lost a lot. We lost our peace of mind.. that is why many a times we are not happy at the top. We may not be delighted to win. This is because we might have lost so many precious things such as relationships, friends on our way up the ladder of success.

As far as kids are concerned they suffer the most. In order to look good every time their childhood gets lost somewhere in the middle. They have to behave like grown ups. Many a times  parents push their children hard to excel. These days we see many such children in the field of television. Here young kids are put in the harsh conditions of shooting for most part of the week. Their study is ignored . Their childhood gets lost in between the scenes. But parents are happy as their kids become famous and also their bank balances soar.

 A few days back, I was watching a TV show in which a competition of 5 year olds was being held. Parents were pushing their kids hard to do well. And those who got selected for next round were showered with praises and those who lost were scolded badly  as they didn’t do what they were taught.. Little did they realised that they were only 5 years old kids. We need is to chill a little and think... Where are we going? Aren't we getting our selves lost in this rat race of defeating others? Should we always beat others? Is it really necessary? We need to ask these questions to our own self and get honest answers.

Yes .. it feels good to be at the top. The feeling of leading the pack is uncompared. But we need to remember that we cannot win every time. We should learn tell ourselves that sometimes it okay not to win. There is always a next time. It is seen that pressure to perform well can  affect us physically and well as mentally.
Keeping ahead is good but not being in the lead sometimes is also not bad. Think twice… ponder over …..